Just as the wild waves of holiday madness began settling into a manageable surf, a spinning undertow sucked me in. This is my dramatic way of telling you about my latest adventure with vertigo set off simply by turning my head on a pillow Monday morning.
Best laid plans for pre-New Year cleaning and organizing, yoga and writing – dashed. And yet, these past two crazy kaleidoscope days delivered me right where I need to be: looking inward. Being quiet and moving slowly works best to keep the spins at bay. Nature is physically forcing me to do just what I psychically need.
Quiet is exactly what I’d been craving – usually my preferred state and the place from where I write. With barely a glimpse of silence these past 6 weeks during these busy bookstore days, I’ve spun right out of control and I appreciate this strange, if uncomfortable manifestation. Forced to slow, become more conscious and to literally, keep my head down.
Ironically, the post I’d been working on before this one was about the joy of looking UP. Simply turning my head whether to the ceiling or the stars – expands my lungs, my heart, and my spirit – something I’d written about before here during another holiday season. A wonderful, simple exercise that never fails to calm and inspire me. Except when experiencing vertigo. Looking up sets off an intense bout of whirling.
So today, like yesterday, I stayed low. I managed to scrub the bathroom – the lower fixtures, back around porcelain fixtures into those frightening corners. But the shower curtain switch will have to wait for another day when I can lift my gaze.
For now, for these last days of the year, I am forced within. To stay steady, I must move carefully and consciously to find my way again, to match the wild spinning of the days as we hurtle towards another year.
Somehow, even in my discomfort, this feels right.
In what direction are you looking?
Whether up or down or all around, warmest wishes for 2015!
3 thoughts on “Spinning with the Earth on the Last Days of the Year”
Whoa! Been there too, and with a simple turn of the head on the pillow. Hope the quiet and stillness help the waviness subside, my friend! xo
Wish I had read this earlier, as I know how to fix your dizziness. It sounds like BPV, benign positional vertigo. The fix is easy and I teach my clients how to do it for themselves as it has a 40-60% chance of happening again. Call me if it does.
Hope you are better, Maggie
Much better – thanks Maggie. Did learn an exercise – up and down on the bed. Maybe that’s what you mean. Will remember next time to give you a shout. Xxx